Still Waiting

Still Waiting

While I'm still waiting to hear something my creative drive has kind of stalled out. I've had a few good ideas but I haven't really sat down and put a few hours into something in quite awhile. I think it may have a lot to do with waiting to hear back from the contests.

My own assumption is that I'm looking for some sort of validation... someone to say "hey, you're a pretty good writer" so that I can then move forward and put more time and energy into things. Even so, deep down inside I know that this is the wrong mindset to have; I should keep plugging away just to create.

I'm expressing my own duality. I have a strong desire to write, it kind of makes me antsy when I don't write for awhile, but I also wnat someone to tell me that I'm a good writer, that I have a lot of potential, that I should keep it up. A validation for continuing. I have ideas I want to flesh out and plot outlines I want to bring to life but I keep making little excuses and finding other things to occupy my time, and when I do finally sit down to write, "oops, it's bedtime!"

Does anyone know how to get around this? I know I should be writing, I should be practicing and improving, but it's just frustrating in creative limbo.

I suppose I'll flip through my little notebook and look for a blurb or two I can flesh out a little more, just something to keep the creative juices flowing.