A Clear Head

As dreaded an activity as mowing the lawn can be, it does provide me a chance to be alone with my thoughts. As I mulled things over, walking back and forth, back and forth, back and... and so on, it came to me that I needed to have some sort of routine. A way to keep expanding my knowledge of screen writing as well as honing my skills. This sort of stability would help me to not only expand my mind on the topic but also help me to feel a sense of accomplishment. I need to know that my fate is not in the hands of a faceless contest judge but in my own, and the only way to do that is through focus and dedication.

I'm not saying I'm not dedicated now, but as far as dedication is concerned I could use a little improvement. Waiting for a contest for months on end is no way to start a career and hindsight being 20/20 as it is I have come up with the following stipulations for myself:

Every other evening (starting tomorrow) from 9pm-11pm (minimum) will be, hmm, let's call it "Form and Function"

The form aspect being that in that time I could choose to read up on the how behind formatting, story, selling and that ilk and the function falling into actually writing. Working on my outlines, treatments, loglines, synopsis and of course actual screenplays.

I think that this re-dedication to what I want to do with my life is a much needed kick in the pants. It will allow me to focus and of course will not pigeonhole me into a particular exercise, you can't really force creativity, it has to come. I don't want to write, I need to write, and I think this funk I've been in lately could be attributed to not letting myself do so. Standing on a precipice wherein salvation is in one direction (winning a contest) and chasm of despair the other (losing) is no way to bring about my dream. That thinking has put me in a state of flux, keeping me aloof in a lot of aspects and really making me kind of flake out. With this new routine I will regain my focus and moreover, my composure.

Things are looking up already!

Reminder: 8/15 submit to the Hollywood Lit Sales development service

Whilst I work on my craft I should also learn how to improve it through more means than my own interpretation of books and lectures. To the future!